Do Something

Hi folks. Me again. I’m not here to post new fiction or give updates on anything. I’m just here to talk with you. Pull up a chair. Relax. Hell, pour a glass of wine and prop your feet up. There’s something I want to share with you.

You’ve all seen me post about the fun that I’ve had on Twitter. There have been anecdotes and screen shots of interactions with some pretty amazing (and pretty bizarre) folks out there on the interwebz. Two of my best friends were met online, actually. One is still too far away for a visit, though we’ve been close for about six years now (CJ, honey, we’re old). The other has come to my house and had me over hers multiple times. I’ve got a ton of people that, over the course of the past however long, have become very important in my life. I’m talking about you reading this, too, whether we’ve been chatting for years or we’ve only just run into each other.

One of the most amazing things I’ve seen as I’ve bounced from place to place on the web is the impact we all have on each other. Yes, some of us have been lucky enough to forge powerful friendships, make professional connections, date, or just goof off with people who share common interests. Beyond that, though, is the truly remarkable power of strangers.

Twitter is home to all sorts of folks doing all manner of things (some of which will not be repeated on this website because, damn it, I’m a lady and the internet is scary). Recently, something’s happened that’s really moved me and a lot of other people.

Aside from being the daughter of a former Marvel artist, I tend to gravitate toward Marvel because I just really love the films that have been coming out. I mean, come on. One of the neat things about Twitter is that you can connect with people of similar interests, and I’ve been finding all sorts of characters there from The Avengers. Specifically, I found Thor and discovered, quite by accident, that Thor was just really, really nice. Something began not long ago that was dubbed #HugArmy. This Hug Army is a really simple collective of people who, using the #HugArmy hash tag on Twitter, offer their anonymous support. Someone will reach out and mention that they’re upset, or they’re having a rough time, or something bad has happened, and within minutes they’re receiving messages of encouragement, hope, and support from other users, often from users who have never interacted with them before.

The power of a friend is unparallelled, but the power of strangers is a pretty spectacular thing as well. Seeing a group of people with no other connection than a searchable tag coming together to support people they don’t know is an awesome thing. It’s made me think about how we react to people that we see every day. We don’t have to know them personally. They might be yawning behind a counter at the market, shivering in a toll booth on the thruway while we count out our change, sitting just a few cubicles away with tiny paperclip sculptures littering their desks… you get the picture. We come into contact with a lot of people in our lives, and without knowing them, we aren’t always sure how they’re feeling. Maybe that woman was snippy because her mother is dying. Maybe that man cut us off because he’s rushing to his second job. Maybe that girl isn’t smiling at us because she just had her heart broken for the first time. Maybe that boy has an attitude because his family turned their backs on him for coming out. The bottom line is that we don’t know.

What I’m asking of you, since you’ve been kind enough to read this whole post, is to think about these things, and think about the impact that you, a stranger, can have on someone else simply by offering them encouragement. You don’t have to hug everyone you see, but do what the Hug Army does: take a little bit of time out of your life to tell someone that they matter. Say hello to someone you wouldn’t normally greet. Remind an old friend why they mean so much to you. Offer a smile to someone who doesn’t look happy. Invite someone to sit at your table when the cafe is full. Just be good to each other.

As I mentioned in an earlier post, this very well could be your last year on earth. It doesn’t matter if the Mayan apocalypse or Snowpocalypse or the Zombie Apocalypse are coming. You don’t know how much time you have on this pretty blue marble. Neither does anyone else. Take a little bit of time out of your day to give someone a smile. If you’re comfortable with it, give someone a hug (assuming that they have neither personal space issues nor poor hygiene). Let someone know that you care that they’re alive and sharing the planet with you.

If you want to talk to me about anything, I’m here. Sometimes life gets away from me and I’m overwhelmed, but I’ll always get back to you. You can leave me a message here, you can follow me on Twitter, or you can email me. If you don’t have my email address, leave me a comment here and we’ll connect.

It’s a simple thing. Just try to make someone’s life better. You have no idea what a magnificent effect it can have.

Major Announcement: Bloody Parchment

Hey, folks.

I won. I’m going to be published.

My short story Inferna won first place in the Bloody Parchment anthology competition, and will be published along with some amazing authors. Read all about it here. Release date to be announced.

As if I needed more reason to dance through the day, first place also means that the fabulous Nerine Dorman will be editing a novel-length work for me. Hm. We don’t know about any novels here, do we…?

This has been such an incredible morning. Waking up to Nerine’s email was unreal. I had to read it three times before I believed it, and then proceeded to flood inboxes and cell phones with excited, caps lock-ridden messages.  It’s remarkable to think that it’s beginning. This is my dream becoming reality.

Thank you all for being here to share it. I’m so grateful for all of you, and to the other writers that will be in this anthology, to the judges, and especially to Nerine. I’m not going to be able to wipe the smile off of my face for weeks, and I’ll probably be dancing periodically throughout the day.

Our Last Year on Earth

With all of the raptures and apocalypses and Antichrists we’ve faced in the past few years, I’m afraid my children won’t be able to successfully complain about anything. “You think you have it bad? Did your world end? No? Didn’t think so. Shut up and eat your spinach.”

On a more serious note, think about it. Really stop and think about it. Whether you believe that the jaws of Hell are going to swallow us whole in a fiery apocalypse or the zombies are going to gnaw on your scalps in the night, this very well could be our last year on earth. We don’t know how long we have on this pretty blue marble. Maybe the world will end, or maybe your time card will be punched quietly and unobtrusively in the night. Maybe… just maybe, you’ll live.

Either way, wouldn’t it be nice if we lived as though we didn’t have a guarantee of tomorrow? If we still planned for our futures, but we seized each day and lived rather than just survived? If we made every moment matter and went to sleep each night without regrets?

Be brave. There’s nothing wrong with being afraid or playing it safe, but be brave. Do something that frightens you. Smile at a stranger. Introduce yourself to someone new. Share your art with another. Laugh. Cry. Make decisions based on what you feel in your heart is right, whether or not that’s the “smart” decision. Remember that you matter. Love. Let yourself be loved. Dream. Live.

A wise friend reminded me recently that no matter how hard we work at this life thing, none of us will make it out alive. No point in living if we don’t give it our all, eh?

Hang in there, sugar people. You’re loved, you’re valued, and you’re missed when you’re not around. Don’t forget that.

Good luck in 2012.

Think Like A Criminal part 2

Read part 1 here.

Content warning: violence and language.

I slid my hand into the bend of his elbow with a smile, and we crossed the bustling street. “You now see why I drive a smaller vehicle,” I murmured, inclining my head toward the Camaro where it rested near the intersection.

“Anything happens to my baby I’m gonna kill Jay myself.”

“I’ll buy you another one.” We slipped between the humans without being touched, their heat and vibrancy tingling across our skin. By the time we reached the office building, Drake’s pulse had sped considerably, and the irises were growing thin. “Do you understand why I told you not to feed before you came here?”

His head turned to me slowly, and he ran a hand over his scalp. “It’s like everything’s in high-def.”

“Oui. Our natures are a weapon as well. Hunger sharpens the senses. Now, it won’t take Sangster long to come down from the roof. We’re making a point. Ensure it is a clear one.”

“Gonna be clear as fucking crystal.”

There was a certain liberty to standing before a darkened office building on a crowded Paris street with our guns in plain view and our fangs bared, and I took a moment to relish the experience before gripping the long knob and jerking it down, snapping the locking mechanism. The handle came off in my hand, and I dropped it as the door swung inward.

The human behind the receptionist’s desk jerked her head up as we strode toward her, and before she could open her mouth to scream, Drake had leaped over the high counter and snapped her neck. I flicked my fingers in his direction and moved deeper into the lobby. We each took a position on either side of the door leading to the staircase, pistols drawn, and I nodded toward the elevator as it dinged. Drake kept one barrel trained on the lift, and the door between us swung outward. Drake’s other hand came down hard atop a man’s skull and I slammed my body against the door when a second man was only halfway through, crushing him against the frame with a wet crunch. Drake’s gun moved over the broken man’s head and fired three times before he stepped away, and I dove onto my side and fired up as the door swung out again. My bullets drove up through jaws and necks, dropping the Kevlar-covered men in seconds. Drake let off two more shots, and the stairwell erupted in shouting.

We hurried inside, and Drake stood in front of me with his guns pointing up while I stacked the bodies and leaned them heavily against the door. I touched his shoulder with the barrel of one pistol when I was through, and he sprinted up the stairs in front of me. We stopped at the landing, and I ducked under his arm to shoot at shin through the railings as more men stampeded down toward us. They tripped and collapsed onto each other, and Drake put a bullet into each of their heads as they tumbled down the stairs like dominoes. He holstered one empty gun and held the other with both hands, and I ducked under his arms and ran up the stairs to the next landing. Drake reached around me to open the door onto the second floor level while I dropped the pistols back into the double shoulder holsters and drew a second pair from the thigh holsters. We heard the door below us open into the stairwell, and the accompanying cursing as the pile of bodies fell onto this fresh assault.

“Jay’s gonna be down here any second, isn’t he?”

“I wouldn’t have it any other way,” I purred, holstering my guns when I didn’t hear any approaching footsteps and reloading. “You’re a decent shot, Drake.”

“You’d think I’d learn how to use a gun before getting permanent weapons in my mouth,” he muttered, flicking his tongue across his fangs, much thicker than mine.

One side of my mouth curved up. “Your body is more in tune with itself now. Your hand-to-eye coordination is impeccable. Now, your lack of conscience, on the other hand…”

“I don’t owe these people shit.”

“Good man.” I slammed the clip home and pointed the pistol at the window. “Sangster. He’s coming. We’re going to be surrounded. Make an escape route.”

Drake strode toward the window and stood with his back to the wall beside it. I mirrored him on the other side. His elbow slammed into the glass and shattered it instantly. It showered onto the ground below. I caressed the triggers as I’d touch a lover and met Drake’s eyes. They held almost as little emotion as I knew mine did. He nodded and closed his eyes, listening. I sniffed at the air and caught that odd scent that denoted a vampire nearby; it was a strange, cold sterility much like the first hints of winter on the air before the snow falls.

For a few stolen moments, everything was still. Drake opened his eyes to look at me, and the butt of a Glock swung inward and connected with my jaw. I stumbled backward as Drake began shooting, but Jay Sangster was over two centuries old. As good as vampirism had made Drake’s skill and agility, Jay was better. He was a blur of leather and denim, somehow coming through the broken window underneath Drake’s shots. I fired in Jay’s general direction, but he rushed at me and shoved the barrel against my cheek. Drake stopped shooting, and we all stood, Jay’s arm tight around my waist. The top of my head reached his shoulder, so he had to stoop to keep from giving Drake a clear shot of that arrogant face.

“Put the gun down, mate.”

“I’m not your fucking mate.”

“Best tell him to listen, love,” he whispered in my ear, his breath stirring the hair that’d worked itself free of the elastic beside my cheek. My lip curled.

“I could, or I could hurt you.” I went limp in his grasp, and Jay was forced to drop to the ground with me or become a clear target. I twisted and squirmed, ignoring the roar and stench of at least twenty humans pouring into the room and screaming for Drake to drop his weapon. I hissed and writhed, but Jay managed to keep me pinned on top of him so that he couldn’t be shot unless the bullet passed through me. I brought my head back as hard as I was able, and he shouted beneath me. His grip loosened just slightly, and I was able to spin around so that my chest was pressed to his. Both pistols were shoved under his chin. I’d broken his nose, and though it was healing before my eyes, it was healing crookedly. I smirked at the red dripping down his face.

“Bloody bitch.”

“Oui. Let me go.”

He spat blood up at me, and I blinked as the spray hit my eyes. It was enough, and he gripped my hair and held my head immobile just millimeters from his.

“Put the sodding gun down,” he shouted, his breath in my mouth. I cursed in French when I heard the brush of cloth that meant Drake had lowered to the ground to place his guns against the floor. My knee came up between Jay’s legs, and he grunted. I shoved myself away from him and rolled, nearly knocking into Drake as he snatched the guns up again and trained them on the older vampire. One of my guns remained on Jay while I pushed myself to my feet and shook my hair out of my face.

“The surveillance ends,” I snarled, baring my fangs at him. He did likewise, and the growl that came from that slender body shook me to my core.

“I’m reporting to higher powers than you, Lee.”

Drake took his eyes off of Jay for a split second. “Lee?” By the time he looked at Jay again, the man had gotten to his feet as well.

“We’ve the misfortune of knowing each other.”

“Aye.” Jay spat blood onto the ground and, without ever taking his eyes off of me, gripped his nose tightly between two fingers and broke it again, holding it straight so that it would heal properly. Red gushed down the front of his face and soaked into a cotton shirt that had once been green under his leather jacket. The torn jeans were smeared with crimson. My stomach clenched, and it took conscious effort to keep from licking the few drops of his blood from my lips. I could already taste him in my throat with each breath. “I’ll watch whatever I’m told to watch, love, and right now that’s your leather-clad arse.”

“How many of your men did we kill on the stairs?”

“Not enough, but they were innocent.”

“They worked for you, non? They weren’t anymore innocent than you are.”

“Would it’ve made a bloody difference either way?”

“Non.” I grinned at him. “I wanted to deliver the message in person. I know precisely where you are in my city, Sangster, and next time, I will find you and end your operations. I want you out of Paris.”

His brows raised. His eyes were startling: caught between blue and gray when meeting them head-on, but a pale gold when viewed from the side. Right now they were trained on me and seemed devoid of all color. “You’ve done such a bang up job tonight. I’m sure I’m terrified, love.”

“I don’t intend to make a personal visit again. Next time it’ll be explosives and snipers.”

“You’ve a bit of blood on your chin, love.” He waved his reddened fingers over his own face to demonstrate. When I said nothing, he smiled. “Not as though you haven’t tasted me before, love. Don’t be shy.”

“Kindly go fuck yourself, Jay.”

He laughed, the sound irritatingly musical. Bastard. I holstered the guns and touched Drake’s arm. We leaped through the shattered window and managed to keep our feet under us when we hit the concrete below. We were able to straighten quickly enough that the few humans who turned at the soft thump of our boots against the sidewalk were able to convince themselves that they hadn’t seen what their eyes had just registered. Such was the beauty of humans. If they didn’t want to know, they wouldn’t. I ran the back of my hand across my bloodied face and displayed my fangs at a small group of adolescents staring at us as we passed. They whistled and gestured toward me, but they left us alone when Drake moved from my back to my side. The hairs on the back of my neck stood at attention, but I grabbed Drake’s hand before he could look over his shoulder.

“Don’t give him the satisfaction,” I snapped, pulling him with me toward the Camaro. Drake was silent until we slid into the leather seats, highlighted with the orange of the racing stripes. “Your car looks like a Halloween advertisement.”

“What the fuck was that for?” He pulled sharply away from the curb, and my head snapped back against the seat. I groaned and rubbed the back of my neck.

“Do try to avoid getting us pulled over, hm?”

“What the fuck was that for, Amelia? Huh? We didn’t do jack shit but get our asses handed to us.”

“Non, we did much more than that.” I turned toward the window and glanced at my reflection as the street whipped by. “His work isn’t nearly as clandestine as he’d like to believe, and now the bitch he’s working for won’t waste her time attempting to hire me.” The Camaro’s speed increased gradually, and Drake refused to look away from the windshield. His knuckles were white on the wheel, and I touched the back of his hand. “Stop that or you’re going to damage your lovely car.”

“So now you pissed off an ancient. Great.”

“Monsieur Miller, if you are unhappy with your line of work, you are more than welcome to seek employment elsewhere.”

The Camaro jerked off the road and skidded to a halt in the shoulder. I had to pry my fingers off of the door. Drake took a deep breath and at last turned to look at me. “Listen, you crazy homicidal bitch, I don’t want you getting killed for no reason. If you’re gonna get killed because somebody’s just stronger or faster than you, fine. Don’t get killed because you’re being stupid.”

My brows arched again. “Drake, if I didn’t know better, I’d say you cared.”

He sighed heavily and pulled back onto the road. “Of course I do. You bought my Camaro.” His gaze flicked to me again, and he grinned. “But you’re not dead, so happy birthday.”

Think Like A Criminal part 1

Since it’s Halloween today and Amelia’s birthday tomorrow, I figured I’d write one grand story and post it in pieces. Part 2 will be up at midnight. Enjoy this peek into the interactions between three of the vampires that’ll be featured in my new story.

The sun dipped beneath the Parisian horizon and transformed the sky into a gilded ruby. My tongue slid across my lower lip and pricked the tip of one little kitten fang. A minuscule droplet of blood beaded at the broken flesh even as it mended itself. I pressed the blood to the roof of my mouth and closed my eyes, the copper shooting across each nerve ending until my very skin was alight with it. When my eyes opened again, I knew that the pupils had dilated to almost annihilate my irises, though in this light it would have been difficult to discern where the brown ended and the black began regardless.

I endured the slight sting of daylight’s last remnants so that I could watch the red bleed into darkness. Nightfall is so much more to our kind than the disappearance of that despicable burn. Even as young as I was in this life, my blood sang with the onslaught of sensations and emotions that accompanied the stars’ journeys through the atmosphere to sparkle like my diamonds overhead. Dusk had its own scent, though faint; there was a softness that tinged the air and purified at the back of my throat as the moments slipped past. It was as close as I could come to drinking fresh spring water. The chill of autumn quickly passing into winter gave the breath in my mouth a frigid bite, and I couldn’t have stopped the curve of my lips if I’d tried. The bite. So cliché now in a time when our kind was painted with the glittering eyes of the demon lover and slipped between the silken sheets of the lonely. We were caricatures in their eyes. We were fantasies. We were toys to pull out of a bedside drawer to play with in the dark and put away again before joining the real world. Not tonight. Tonight, when I could smile to the fullest and none would question.

I stepped away from the window and let my nostrils flare. “The door is open, Drake.”

Across the little flat overlooking the Seine, the silver knob twisted and pushed the thick mahogany door inward. Drake Miller stepped over the threshold and locked it automatically behind him. My head tilted to one side, and I took my time admiring each tendon rolling under the smooth skin of his arms as he drew both guns and held them out for my inspection: twin Smith & Wesson pistols. “These okay?”

“Oui, magnifique.” I closed the distance between us and let my fingers slide over the cold metal before flicking my gaze to his pale blue eyes, only a few centimeters higher than my own. “A forty-five suits your frame. Enough kick, I suppose, hm?”

“They leave a big fucking hole, if that’s what you mean.”

“Mhmm.” My hands moved over his wrists and up his bare arms to where the black material was stretched tightly across his shoulders. “You certainly look the part.”

“Figured I was supposed to.”

“You were.” I brushed one finger around to the back of his neck and drew it up to the base of his skull. The light, dim though it was, reflected off of his scalp, still some shades darker than my own skin though he was relatively pale. My smile widened. “Quite imposing. An excellent body guard.”

“Some body guard when you could kick my ass.” The humor was in his voice and eyes alone. Nothing in his expression changed. One corner of my mouth twitched upward.

“Not for long. I’ve only a year over you, and when those years number less than three, that isn’t saying a great deal.”

“Hence the guns.”

“Exactement.” I stepped back and circled him, admiring the tight fit of the black jeans. “Pity you’re so firmly against… how did you word it…”

“Banging the boss.”

“Oui.” I hooked one finger in the straps of the double shoulder holster and gave it a little tug. He didn’t move. “So very professional.” I reached to the shirt’s collar to touch the tendrils of the tattoo creeping up to brush his skull. “Tell me what you’d like to do this evening, Monsieur Miller.”

“It’s your birthday, Ms. Delacroix.”

“Amelia.”

His mouth worked, and I smiled to myself. “Okay. Amelia.”

“My birthday is tomorrow. Tonight is Halloween.” I walked around to stand before him again and took a deep breath, nearly purring when his eyes remained on my face and didn’t dip down to my chest. “And you, my dear American, are far too serious.”

Something passed across his expression that I’d have missed if I’d had human senses; the skin around his eyes lost some of the tightness, his lips pressed less severely together, and as he returned the guns to their holsters, I spread the light leather duster open and rested my hands on my hips over two of the five guns I was carrying, each of them a PAMAS G1 with a fifteen round capacity. “You look like a cross between Catwoman and James Bond,” he said, the faintest flavor of a growl deepening his voice.

I looked down at the corset top and leather pants. “I can understand your first reference, but why Bond?”

“Because you’ve got more weapons stashed on you than anybody wearing clothes that tight should be able to have.”

I laughed and shifted my weight from one foot to the other, brushing my ankle against a thin knife hidden inside my boot. “Magnifique. That makes you my Bond girl, hm?”

He shook his head, allowing a true smile to break through at last. “I’m not gonna put on a dress.”

I stared rather blatantly at his pelvis. “Non, you don’t have the thighs.”

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I reclined on the hood of his Camaro, stretched out between the orange racing stripes, and prodded his lower back with the pointed toe of one boot. He looked at me over his shoulder and shook his head. “You look like a centerfold.”

I snorted. “The press should be so lucky. How many women have you had on the hood of this car, Drake?”

“Counted six security cameras so far.”

“You’re not answering my question.”

“I know. Blind spot is in that far corner of the hotel near the fire escape, but they’re gonna be watching that.”

I sighed and pushed myself into a sitting position, folding my legs in front of me. “And what, pray tell, would you recommend?”

“You’re the criminal.”

“And you’re the only one of us who has seen the inside of a prison for over one year.”

“You’re making my point for me.”

“You’re still thinking like a human, Drake.” I slid down the hood and pressed myself to his back, the insides of my thighs pressed to the outsides of his and my hands against his shoulder blades. “We aren’t human. We’re more. Think like a predator.”

He cleared his throat, and I waited, letting my forehead dip to rest against his spine. The dark scent of his skin tickled my nostrils, and I wet my lips. His short burst of laughter brought a wide smile to my face. “Up. The cameras all point down. People never look up.”

“Oui.”

“Roof’s only got two guards. We can take them out quick and quiet.”

I nipped his shoulder through his shirt with my human teeth, my fangs pressing against the fabric. “Très bien.” He stepped away from the car so that I could slide to the ground. “This is the problem with employing humans when you’re dealing with vampires. Sangster should know better.”

“Unless he does and he’s waiting for us near the roof.”

“In which case, what should we do?” I watched him consider the possibility.

“Go in from the ground.”

My eyebrow arched. “In full view of the cameras?”

Drake grinned. “If he already knows we’re coming, doesn’t matter. We’ve gotta do what he doesn’t expect, and walking through the front doors is stupid. He won’t expect us to be stupid.”

Read part 2 at midnight on Nov. 1, 2011.

Salem

Did you know that the Witch Hysteria in Salem only lasted for fifteen months, or that those found guilty of witchcraft and executed for it don’t have actual graves? More importantly, did you know that going on the Salem Night Tour will probably result in being led over unmarked graves and possible sightings of floating, glowing orbs?

See, this is why I loved going back to Salem.

I first stepped foot in one of the creepiest places this side of the Atlantic in 2007, and as soon as we pulled off of the highway and started toward one of the neighborhoods that would lead us into the city, we drove by the Proctor grave. If you’ve read The Crucible, you’ll understand why I was so giddy and nearly climbed out of the car window trying to snap a photo.

Our first destination: The Hawthorne Hotel. Read about it here, and then read about the strange occurrences there. It looks unassuming enough on the outside, but this is a photo taken of the hallway from my room’s doorway. You tell me whether or not you think it’s haunted.

I'm not saying anything definitively, but I may or may not have felt a few strange vibrations against my skin in different areas of this building.

Salem has an enormous amount of things to see and do whether or not you’re interested in the paranormal. I, of course, am, so we didn’t do a great deal in the way of typical vacation activities. During our visit, we passed through the New England Pirate Museum, Witch Dungeon Museum, Witch History Museum, Salem Witch Museum (yes, these are all different), and THE NIGHTMARE GALLERY:

I met Nosferatu in here. Seriously.

I think the highlight of the trip, rain notwithstanding, was the Salem Night Tour, which introduced me to the Reverend Peter White. Rev. White is an ordained Wiccan minister who has actually been on paranormal investigations, and let me tell you, the man knows his history. On our walking tour, during which the good Reverend somehow managed to be cheerful despite talking to a sea of umbrellas, we were led through the historic city and told the real history of the place. It wasn’t uncommon to be shown a certain historic house or building, told whatever the blurb in the pamphlets would say, and then given the truth about a grisly murder.

Here’s one of those, but I’m not going to spoil the surprise and tell you that story. You’ll have to go on the tour yourself:

Walking past this building the following day, in the brilliant sunshine, gave me chills.

Salem is also home to the United States’ second oldest cemetery. Why the second oldest? According to the Reverend (please forgive me for paraphrasing), there are seven or eight cemeteries in the country claiming to be the oldest, and the people of Salem aren’t stupid. Who’s going to argue being the second oldest?

The graves ranged from the massive memorials that came up to my chest to tiny stones barely peering through the grass. The size of the stone is not, as some have supposed, an indicator that a child was buried under the tiny tombstone; it’s simply an indication of how much money was available to spend once the unfortunate soul passed on.

Now, remember way back at the beginning of this post when I told you that the executed witches didn’t have graves? That’s 100% true. A witch was said to be impure and, as servants of the devil, didn’t deserve a proper burial. Instead, the body was left where it was cut from the gallows.

This isn’t to say that the nineteen who were hanged and the one who was pressed to death aren’t remembered:

Each of the fourteen women and five men who were hanged, as well as Giles Corey, have their own memorial stone jutting out from the low wall surrounding this peaceful enclosure. Their bodies are not here.

The memorial stones have the name and death date of the deceased.

The history here is as rich as the mystery surrounding it, and today it’s not only a massive tourist attraction, it’s also a sort of haven for practitioners of Wiccan and Pagan paths. You’ll find a good number of people in this city who are only too happy to answer questions about what really happened in 1692, how much the city has seen since the hysteria, and what witchcraft truly is. The people in this city are the kindest and cheeriest I’ve met in a long time, and their willingness to answer the same questions over and over (and over and over) only furthers my belief that when you love something, you’re never really sick of telling its story.

If you visit Salem, I’m going to recommend hitting every place I’ve mentioned in this admittedly incomplete post and more, because there is so much to see and experience. Stay in a haunted hotel if you can and wander around the hallways at dusk. Take a tour with someone who will divulge what really happened in these beautiful houses. Stand in the cemetery and give those men and women who were executed a moment of silent reflection. Most of all, respect and learn from the horrible and fascinating history you’ll find lurking around every corner, and don’t leave home without your sense of humor.

Now that I’m through writing what amounted to be a love letter to the city of Salem, I’m going to get back to my fiction.

If you have any other questions, want to hear some of my personal stories, or would like to see more photos I’ve taken, you can email me at christinavincent@napsinthelibrary.com

Thank you very much, Reverend White, for being so helpful when I asked you questions both for my fiction and for my own personal knowledge.

Jay and Colin

October 1984

 

Colin was staring at the ceiling again. I waited, his body a line of heat under the blankets beside mine, and watched his face instead. The strands of hair fluttering around his thinning cheeks were silvering now, and fine lines creased the corners of those brilliant green eyes. “I don’t want you to see me like this, Jay,” he mumbled at last, a deep thickness weighing down his voice. I pressed my lips to his temple and slid my arm under the pillow to cradle his head. “This is worse than getting old in front of you.”

“Don’t be foolish.”

“I mean it.” He turned his head on the pillow to face me, and I cupped his cheek in one hand. “It’s bad enough getting gray and saggy…”

“Christ, love, you’re handsome as you ever were. Hush.” He shook his head, and I kissed each eyelid. “I mean it now. Hush. I love you. You think a sodding virus is going to make me love you any less?”

Salt trickled between my lips as I kissed his face. “You can’t turn me now, can you?”

My jaw clenched, and I swallowed. “I don’t know. I don’t know what it’d do to you. You might heal, and you might not.”

“A vampire with AIDS.” His laughter was anything but cheerful.

“It might reverse it. Kill off the virus.”

His hands slid over my chest, suddenly hotter than before. He may as well have been burning a hole through it. “And it might not. What if I don’t want to take that risk? I mean, this is going to be horrible, but at least I know it’s going to end eventually.” He touched my jaw and smiled. “You need to shave.”

“So do you, you look like a bloody Yeti.” He snorted a laugh that erupted into a coughing fit. I pulled him against me and kissed the top of his head. “I don’t care about your age or about any sodding virus, Colin. I’m not leaving you.”

“You look young enough to be my kid now.”

I smiled against his hair. “You’re only getting more handsome with age. It suits you.”

“Does it?”

“Aye, it does.” My hands moved up and down his back, and he shivered. I tugged the blankets up around us. “You look dignified.”

Another laugh, and my heart pounded behind my ribs. “Dignified. Shit, Jay. Just get me a cane and a set of dentures already.” He kissed the hollow of my throat and held onto me. “Tell me what it’s like.”

“What’s that, love?”

“Dying.”

I swallowed again. “It feels like drifting to sleep. You’re lightheaded, and your skin cools off as if you’d stretched out for a nap in the sun and a breeze picked up.” I reached over him to the nightstand and slid the ashtray closer. “It won’t hurt.”

“Yes it will,” Colin said, sitting up and leaning against the headboard while I took the rolling papers and the little bundle wrapped in plastic to place on my nightstand.

“I won’t let it hurt you.”

“I don’t want you to kill me, Jay.” When I remained focused on rolling the joint for him, he slid his arms around my stomach and pressed his cheek between my shoulder blades. “I mean it. I don’t want you to carry that with you forever.”

“Then you’re going to suffer, Colin.”

“For years. I know,” he whispered. He kissed my back and squeezed my middle. “You don’t have to stay.”

“Don’t be a twit. I’ve already told you I’m staying with you.”

“Thank you.”

I handed him the joint and reached for the silver Zippo he’d given me for Christmas last year, glittering beside the lamp. “Don’t put on any masks for me.”

He took a long drag from the joint as soon as I’d lit it and offered it to me. I shook my head, and he sucked on the end again. “You’re not going to get high with me?”

I smiled at him and settled against the pillows. “Sometimes I just enjoy watching you fly, love.”

He grinned and let his head fall back. “I’m sorry I wasn’t brave enough to say yes when you offered before. I could’ve… it doesn’t matter now.”

I rested my hand on his thigh, and he covered it with his own. “Colin, watching your face when you’re forcing down one of those bloody frozen dinners isn’t something I’d ever give up.”

He smirked and took another drag. “Wouldn’t have to if you could cook.”

“I’m nearly two hundred years old and I’m English, for Christ’s sake.”

“I sure know how to pick ‘em.”

“Aye, lad, you do.” I leaned over to kiss his arm.

“Lad. You can’t be a lad when you’re pushing forty.”

“You can when your boyfriend is five times your age.” I waited for him to finish the joint and slide back down under the covers so that I could wrap him up in my arms again. “Have you thought about Halloween?”

“You already got the Zappa tickets.”

“If you’re not feeling well, we don’t have to go. We can be crotchety old men and sit at home watching Nosferatu.”

“I’m not missing Zappa on Halloween.”

“You’re sure you can make it through the Felt when it’s going to be that busy?”

“Jay, stop. I mean it. If I can’t handle it, I’ll tell you.”

“Promise me.”

“I promise you.” He grinned and kissed me. “You worry too much.”

“You push yourself too hard.”

“I have my very own vampire looking out for me. I’ll be fine.” He bit my lip, and I rolled my eyes. His laughter was genuine at last. I smiled and ran my fingers through his hair. “Jay?”

“Hmm?”

“Why’d you pick me?”

“Because I love you.”

“Yeah, but why? I’m not an artist or a musician like Mikhail or your girls.”

“You’re also the first male candidate I’ve had that I’ve been in love with. What of it?”

“What makes me so special?” He pulled away from me a little to look at me. “I mean, there were people playing music at that show. Good, beautiful music. There were all kinds of artists and singers and dancers. Why’d you see me?”

I took his hand in mine and raised it to my lips to kiss his knuckles. “Because no one else called me Jay, Colin. I’m James to everyone else, save for Hannah.”

“That’s a stupid reason.”

I kissed between his brows. “Because you sat with me and appreciated the music. You don’t have to play it to express it in your eyes. You’ve the eyes of an artist.”

“You fell in love with me and wanted to make me a vampire because of my eyes.”

“Your eyes, your voice, your smile, your wit… your tendency to reach for compliments when I’ve been smitten for eighteen years, you immodest fool…” I traced under his eye with my thumb. “Because you never questioned who I was. You saw me for exactly what I am.”

“Stuck in the middle or a vampire?”

“Both.” I nipped the tip of his nose. “Hannah was the only other who accepted that about me.”

“A flapper isn’t going to care who you go to bed with. The rest of your vampires are pretty traditional.”

“Different times, love. A man was normal or he was a dandy, which was bad enough. There wasn’t anything in the middle save even worse deviants than that.”

He shrugged and cuddled closer to me. “You loved me. Doesn’t matter who else you loved.”

“No past tense.” My arms tightened around him. “I’m still in love with you.”